bernice is currently ill-nated and doesn't like it.

i'm ill.
tsk.
i didn't go for tuition.
cher, also sick.
sumtimes people get sick cos they're too worried to get h1n1.
thats what i noticed.
LOL.
ever since the outbreak, people are getting sick.
its a bad sign.
i'm now trapped at home.
can't go out.
my legs are turning jelly.
so, ya i can't walk.
lol.
i'm afraid of my EL compo test.
the topics are frigging hard.
my parents went bintan.
so lonely at night.
hmm so bored ..



many things has changed during this few weeks.
many things that i pretend i'm not aware of.
and pretend to be ignorant.
but everytime at night i will be contemplating on this things.
and just let it out.
i don't wanna be lying to myself anymore.
this things are just so heavy.
its a burden to be trying to push them aside.
i'm feeling weak inside.
i just want a break.
i just want to take a breather.
i can't take it anymore.
its just tearing inside.
that everything is drifting away.
and you try pulling it back to you.
even though the things will never be the same again.
and everything will just vanish.
its hard to let go.
but i guess.
its better to.